"Have you ever though about leaving?"

Earlier today, I asked that question to several people I know, a question about how much more you can bear this city, the city that we grew up, that some of us call home, some of us just stuck here and struggle to survive. Me, I wasn't born here, but I grew up here. 

Fuck the traffic, fuckin' love the city.

Yes, the traffic is unbearable, I do admit that I contribute to the traffic by driving my own car here and there, but hey, where i'm going, it will take me more effort to take public transportation, plus, I pay my taxes so I deserve better infrastructure, ain't gonna ride crappy Metro Mini or Kopaja where in the past I lost my wallet and got robbed several times. So yeah. Plus I need everything in my baggage.

So, back to the question.

"I never thought about actually leaving, because everywhere I go, I always have this feeling of missing home. When I was away, I missed a lot of things that I left behind, and I was really looking forward to go back to those things I had in mind. So I thought, Jakarta was it, I knew because I've been to other places but Jakarta was always on the back of my mind.

But then I went back and things weren't the same."

I got that from a friend. 

In some way, I love it enough to tolerate, that's why I stay and still hope that things will get better, it's like a relationship with this city, you get hurt sometimes, and I think i'm still here hoping to regain what i've lost, in vain.

Nevertheless, I'm not lucky enough to have parents that will throw me money to spend to start a new life abroad, I mean i had that chance, studying abroad, but threw it away for some girls in the past. My parents pampered me well though, they raised me well to always feel enough. Some people I know have the capability to decide and just go because they were born rich. (You thought i was going to say "but i'm stuck here in this hell hole" right? no I wasn't gonna say that) I still have mouths to feed, projects to finish, people that I care, my family, and most of all, MY CATS.

But my children deserve a better environment to grow up. They need better education, better infrastructure, and I will make efforts for that to happen. I'm not gonna force anything though, but keep this in mind, it will actually cost more to live here with the same field of work, why? You're gonna need to buy a car, a house that you can afford probably located at the edge of the town, which leads to more stress due to traffic, and good education is expensive unless you're smart as fuck and get scholarship. Boom. 

In the mean time, I'm here for this city, and everywhere I go, any place that I will end up at, I will always be that "awesome Indonesian guy Dochi" and home isn't just here, a city, a country, earth is home. And i'm keen to explore.

I hope we will have a good leader for this country, get rid of corruption, build proper infrastructure, fix the economy. Looking forward for future election. Really.

In conclusion, do i really think about leaving? well, to put it in good words, my heart will always be here.

Pheromones

Lyric & Song by Dochi Sadega

i'll tell you how good it would feel
if i close my eyes to see you're so close to me
and everytime i need you, you're standing next to me
when the day is over we went back
to the lives we used to live
i'm with her and you're with him
so far away

wasn't a long time ago
we used to laugh together
and i told you how i felt
now i miss you so
today i'll never forget
and i will never regret
oh can we do this again
tomorrow?

i'll tell you how bad it would feel
when you're gone
i'm singing up the song we used to sing
with every breathe i take
the line i'm remembering

Target 2013

2013 :
-Steamed banana ada lagu
-Steamed banana bisa main di kafe-kafe
-Bisa punya iPhone5
-Semoga naik kelas
-Bisa ke jepang, australia, new york
-Perluas network untuk semua urusan
-Semoga dapat Aveo yang paling baru
-Tatoan
-Bisa memasukan apa yang harus dimasukan
-Dapet bassnya Mark Hoppus
-Punya bioskop sendiri
-Bisa main Synth
-Tobat
-Die

the worst thing of this all

Regular Show are (+twitter)

Drums: @flashdick
Bass: @Jmonomusic
Guitar: @katadochi
Voc: @alexalxa
Engineers : @SAEjakarta


I thought the rain will wash away
All that has been said and made
I thought this time that you would stay

But here i stand just to watch you fade
Every night and every day you took my breath away

Do you wanna know the worst thing of this all?
You were the best i've had so far
Cause every song and every word
I just can't keep my mind
Do you wanna know the worst thing of this all?
You were the best i've had so far
Cause every song and every word
I just can't keep my mind off you

I hope you can still smell the scent of my skin
Oh i wish we could still make it up and kiss
Victoria secret, your favourite potion
If only there's not too much action

If it's space you need here have my galaxy
And my whole world i dedicate to you

This is my truth.

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with.
 
I miss you when I laugh, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow.

I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other. For those were some of the best times of my life.

I miss your smile. Eventhough I know it’s not for me.

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

I still think about you.

I still want you here.

And yes,

it still hurts.

So I need you,

to understand.

What do you know about the date?

Hari ini saya akan menge post tentang tanggal yang menurut orang-orang itu bagus, seperti tanggal sekarang ini yaitu 12.12.12. yang dimaksud saya sekarang ini. sometimes he can be a nice date to continue to be dijadiin kenangan terindah. haha!

Dan itulah.... Sekian sedikit info dan menuhin post aja sih, biar banyak. hehe....

Like a Hipster?

Akhir-akhir ini banyak yang ngebahas tentang Hipster. Terutama di socmed kayak twitter atau  facebook, dan gue sering banget nemu kata Hipster.
Tapi sebelum gue ikut-ikutan nge-tweet tentang hipster, gue pengen tau hipster itu apa sih sebenernya?

Hipster adalah istilah yang sering digunakan untuk merujuk kepada subkultur muda, dewasa baru menetap kelas menengah perkotaan dan remaja yang lebih tua. Penggunaan istilah muncul pada 1990-an dan berlanjut hingga saat ini. Subkultur dikaitkan dengan musik independen, sensibilitas non-mainstream busana bervariasi, dan gaya hidup alternatif.

yang tadi dapet di Wikipedia :)
Jadi, singkatnya sih hipster itu buat mereka yang mengikuti trend paling baru!

Terus ciri-ciri hipster itu apa aja sih?
Gue kasih tau ya, ciri-ciri hipster itu :


1. Gak mau disamain sama yang lain
    Hipster gak mau disamain sama yang lain karena mereka anti mainstream, ngerasa yang paling beda. Sebenernya sih kalo emang udah "beda" gak tau dari segi musik, fashion atau apa sih oke-oke aja.
 
2. Barang-barang hipster biasanya mahal
     Sebenernya nggak semua sih, soalnya udah ada barang tembakaan alias KW-nya. Tapi sebagai hipster yang asli barang2 hipster biasanya mahal. Mahal kenapa? Soalnya branded. Jadi itu kenapa banyak hipster yang dari kalang kelas atas.


3. Selera musiknya beda sama yang lain
     Biasanya gak suka sama musik yang dianggap kampungan atau ketinggalan zaman. Lebih suka musik-musik pop/pop punk gitu.

4. Makanan yang lagi ngetrend
     Sesuai definisinya hipster selalu ngikutin trend, jadi makanan pun harus up to date. Contohnya rainbow cake, red velvet, sushi. Tapi keliatannya emang enak sih itu makanan.