nocturnal

i've been infected with restless whispers and cheats
that manifested in words and the lies that you speak

because I played the fool for you

i'm hearing static, you're like an automatic
you just wanna keep me on repeat and hear me crying.

just gonna get my back.

nocturnal, nocturnal, nocturnal, nocturnal

my shadow doesn't show in the dark
the night time is inclined to my heart
the emptiness I felt from the start
will follow me 'till I fall apart

passing by

i'm ready to conquer the world
a world of my own, hidden below my deepest thought
a world of thought that always been haunting me
a world of ambition, not hatred
a world of changes and chances
a world of hopes, not dreams
not just joy, tears nor fear
beyond that, there's a ghost waiting to be rejuvinate
this soul will someday conquer all my fear
and balance my joy and tears to maintain a head-straight every time i pass thru

-26yo

25 things if u be my gf

1. Make you smile when you are down

2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice

3. Stick up to you, but still respect your independence

4. Give you the remote control everytime we watch tv

5. Come up behind you and put my arms around you

6. Play with your hair

7. My hand will always find your hand

8. Be cute when i really want something

9. Offer you plenty of massages

10. Dance with you, even if i feel like a dork

11. Never run out of love

12. Be funny, but know when to be serious

13. Realize im being funny when i need to be serious

14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready

15. React so cutely when you hit me, though it actually hurts

16. Smile a lot

17. Plan a romantic date full of things i wouldnt normally do because i know it means a lot to you

18. Appreciate you

19. Help others out

20. Drive for hours just to see you

21. Always give you a kiss when you leave, even when my friends are watching

22. Sing even if i cant

23. Always try to make you laugh

24. Stare at you

25. Call for no reason

one in a million

all i wanna be is with you

all i think about is you

you told me less is more
i miss you more and more and more

is it wrong for me to feel
all the hope that's so surreal
if what I feel is wrong
then I prefer that I stay guilty as long
as I'm with you

-love xoxo <3

hello

Finally kerjaan baru, teman baru, koneksi baru, tempat baru. Bisa jadi tempat yang baru buat lanjutkan semangat yang sebelumnya pudar.

Semoga makin betah kedepannya!

aneh

tepat pada tanggal 20 desember saya resign dikantor yang tidak layak untuk kerja, dan suasana yang sangat tidak
sehat. dimana untuk ijin sakit saja di persulit, jika memang seperti itu harusnya perusahaan seperti itu tidak ada dan jangan ada. dari manajer sampai team leader juga sangat tidak kooperatif. disalah-salahkan semuanya makin tidak jelas. semoga untuk para petinggi tersebut kena karmanya. 

dari yang kerja rodi, sampai tidak menghormati para wanita. sangat tidak etis seperti itu, memperlakukan karyawan tidak sepatutnya perusahan seperti itu. 

kantor paling sampah.

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